-September 30, 2005-
Honestly Sorry
i was weak but still you loved the weakness within me
i was hopeless but you showed me there could be tomorrow
i could not fly but you taught me not to crawl
i was scared and you made me feel strong
i was hurting and endlessly crying
you held your hand and showed you care
i was unforgiving full of hatred in my heart
but you told me there is no good in hate
and forgave me so i could learn to forgive
i was to the point of giving up
almost to letting go
but you said hold on, maybe someday,somehow
you told me, "i love you"
but you taught me to much
i cannot let go, i can no longer lie to myself
i know you wish you haven't taught me that much
but please do understand, if you honestly care
listen to what i say, i do mean each word
thank you for all that you've been but i cannot love you still
but until that day do keep in mind that maybe someday, somehow.
blinked and flew @ 2:30 PM
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-September 29, 2005-
Unspoken Love
when the day comes that we meet again
hoping that the courage within me
would help me show what i feel inside
the fear that once covered the feeling deep inside
has turned itself into a sadness of being alone
the love that i feel; to a sorrowful hatred
one day when the time has come
and the place is right
hope the feeling's still there
today i hope you've found the one
for the love that i once felt
has fade away with the memories of us.
blinked and flew @ 5:38 PM
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-September 28, 2005-
When We Meet Again
T'was a feeling deep inside,
Too pure, too strong to be ignored,
But you never seemed to care.
I feared the thought of loosing you
Thou i never really had you.
I hurt for the love i feel
And cried for the hopes that was shattered
I tried for you to feel what i feel
But i guess i tried to hard
That somehow i got tired
I had to go, to move on with my life
But the love i feel is, was and will
always be in my heart, in my mind
But will i go on?
If fate allowed for us to meet, someday
Will the feeling be there? Will i still hurt?
I tried to hold on as much as i could
But if you still love me not, what then can i do?
blinked and flew @ 5:37 PM
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-September 22, 2005-
Bem's creativity
I Pray that God
Would take this feelings I have for you
I’ve been suffering excessive pain
So much tears were cried
And I know you’re not worth of it..
I laugh out loud
But the pain is still inflicting
I wear smile
When deep down inside
My heart is crying as it bleeds…
Cause Baby..
All I ever wanted is to be with you
Give my world to you
Kiss away the pain
Embrace your heart with my love
And have these things back from you..
But I know..
It’s ridiculous..
Because you can never love someone like me..
You know it hurts..
But I’m setting you free..
Cause we’re never meant to be..
[_-Bem Antolin-_]
blinked and flew @ 11:07 PM
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-September 21, 2005-
19|09|2k5
Into the river her tear fell,
and so it goes with all her
heartaches and hate for the world.
She once said that it's not the
world she hates but the people
who lives in it.
How pathetic can you get?
Can you be emptier than this?
She thought of suicide,
of hurting herself,
a total fiasco.
Failing at failing.
What the hell.
blinked and flew @ 1:40 AM
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-September 20, 2005-
Tuesday boredom.
something I wrote on a boring tuesday at school.
It's 10:37 on a dready tuesday morning.
I'm stuck in an empty room with 3 of my mates.
One's busy making her daily sketches,
the other driving herself to sleep with a full volume song,
("crave" - marc dorsey), the last one's taking her daily dosage of nicotine,
and here I am with my pen and notebook, writing and writing.
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Tomorrow if I see your face
would I recognize your smile?
The smile I adored, the smile I loved.
Into the emptiness of the wall, I stare.
Thinking of the way we used to be.
The love we used to share.
I cried, I struggled, I died and I survived.
blinked and flew @ 1:28 PM
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-September 01, 2005-
01|09|2k5
If roses are red
and violets are blue.
If pen is to paper,
and words are for books.
If sun is equal to moon
and the stars can only
be seen at the absence of the sun.
If love is forever,
If time can heal all wounds,
If we live in such a perfect world,
If the world "hurt" does not exist.
blinked and flew @ 1:39 AM
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this is the place where my crazy thoughts 'bout anything goes,
when I can't throw them away.
a place where you can see what runs inside a deranged mind.